This is the Spoon Nation

Don’t even know how to explain it. But I feel like life is presenting nothing new. 

Life: heres all this bullshit

me: wow thanks life, but I have already been through this before several times!

Life: oh? really? well this is all I have to offer. 

Fuck me. I’m just wishing for school to start so maybe I can deal with different bullshit. Instead of the same shit over and over again. I feel so boring so blah. But who really cares? 

Whatever happened to DGAF way of living? it’s so easy and stress free.

can’t I find you.

So fucking hungry and there is nothing to eat here that is cold and good. I can make rice and soup thats about it. I feel like I am starving to death. 

Anyways I have not had a cigarette all day and I feel fine? its so weird. I usually have the shakes and a headache. But thats only when I’m really craving one. And lately (meaning today and last night) I haven’t been wanting one. I think that today is the start of me quitting but who knows. 

I Just watched wilfred and I don’t know how I really feel about the series yet and I have watched like 5 episodes. I like how every episode has a message that helps better how you feel about yourself. I think it is really cute. I don’t like how the dog Wilfred is constantly high on something. I think thats dumb.

I think I’m going to vlog today even though I just started my day. Ha ha and it almost 5.

For a yea yeah yeah t-shirts. It was really fun. Tomorrow w are actually going to paint it down on a shirt. I can’t wait. I thought it turned out really cool. On another note  think I’m going to start the vlogs again but hopefully they will be better. They need to be longer and filed with more artistic editing. Also really want to make a music video.

and I think I just came up with the gift i want to make for him on our day =].

I want to make a flip book of all the pictures we took together.

then I want to make a bigger book but I don’t know what to put in that one yet I was inspired by this fuckyeahbookarts.tumblr.com to do this.

Today was really good. I went on a date with my boyfriend to the movies. Then when we got home he passed out. It was so adorable. He twitches and stuff It’s kinda weird. So I was stuck watching teen mom for awhile. 

I haven’t watched it in awhile so i was shocked to see how fucked up their lives were now. Like shit almost getting arrested and getting your baby taken away possibly?! thats all really crazy to me. And the one couple with out a baby should just get off of the show.

After that I decided to go home because my bf had to wake up early for work the next day. I didn’t want to disturb him while he was sleeping cause thats always annoying. Also his couch/bed is really uncomfortable to sleep on. Especially with two people on it. 

When I got home Mindy, jackers and Hayden were over watching Snakes on a Plane. A horrible movie by the way. So we sat around and talked about being in a band and wearing tin foil hats to protect us form aliens and such. It was really fun. Then we whipped out my hookah. The melon flavor sheesha was really good just tried it tonight. Mindy wouldn’t let me take a picture with the projector of a me with a cat face. It’s ok some other time.

Tomorrow I’m going to jack n’ the crack for lunch with jackers. It’s always fun having lunch with her. She’s my bestie. Eventful days are good. This is my only real month of summer since I had class all summer long. Can’t wait for fall semester though!

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and I thought it was alright. I don’t like the ending at all. It was really bad. Anyways I still had fun going on a date with my man. =] More exciting thing tomorrow. Hopefully get some fabric.

to bad i suck dick at it.

Can’t wait I have t been In so long! Jackers was joking about m having to use the “walker” and the bumpers to help me bowl. It’s true I suck at bowling. But! I still think it is really fun. Anyways thinking of wearing my lace shorts and star wars shirt? but I’m not sure.

On another note  have been having really grea time making clothes and such so my next project is a mini backpack. I have the pattern for it and everything I also found the cutest fabric for it at walmart!

Went through some emotional things lately. But I think Right now it’s become calm once again. I never thought I’d see someone I know cry. I hope the worst is over. There is still a lot of work that needs to be done but I think it is of to a good start.

was yesterday. I called it judgment day because my teacher was going to shift through our work and grade us. He took some photos and didn’t tear me apart so that was a good thing. I think he liked my stuff. The pot luck was also really good. Some one brought enchiladas. Seems like some one always brings those to a pot luck. Moving onn (Greek reference)

 Tomorrow I am going to clean my car and my room. I am in the process of getting ready for a garage sale. So as I’m cleaning my room I am sorting things and trashing things. It will be a slow process before I actually have everything sorted . So yeah a little spring cleaning before school starts up again in a couple weeks.

Do you feel the regret the disappointment? you’ve got everything to hide.

I’ve got a secret not gunna keep it

cause secrets keep you sick

Tell me how you feel maybe i can seal the deal

Honey oh honey don’t you know the lies the cheats

they all keep you down full of darkness

yes don’t feel it? dont you feel it?

You’ve got a secret dont keep it 

cause it will keep you dead.